When you look closely and connect with this deeper need you can see that it appears to mirror a need outside of you. An external need, whether it be for a special relationship, a better job, to be recognized by family, work or peers. A need to be seen, to be validated, to be loved, a need to be powerful in the world.
 
When these external needs utilize the egos ability to fantasize, in other words mass projection, its prize tool, then you can say you have mastered the art of connecting in the world through the pain body. We identify and spend our time out in the external killing fields, sleepy, tired and hypnotized and waiting for some special someone or situation to bring us Life, clarity and purpose.
 
Our need to hang tightly on to the dream and fantasies in order to avoid looking and being with the denied need within, assures us that we remain always thirsty while telling ourselves that we are not.

This deep and rejected place inside is the motivator for the fantasies, the day dreams, the projections. In the same breath one moment of connection with this deep internal need will expose the motivation of the egos plans and goals, fears and insecurities, denial and self hatred. Looking within, facing the need as the love you are is a direct threat to all fantasy. Meeting yourself, being available within.
 
The fight and the resistance that is the very flesh of projection has no defense against the genuine longing to connect to Self, to go within, to access what seems insurmountable to face or to look upon
 
What if we knew that the heart not only has the capacity but in fact was built for this union. That it waits on with infinite patience to meet all parts of you, denied or otherwise, wounded or neglected, conscious or unconscious.
 
In the alchemy and presence of spirit the deep need surrenders its wisdom in contribution to the perfection of love. You realize that all along this wound that was so feared and rejected has always been in direct proportion to the depth of your desire to be conscious. In other words the gateway to experiencing Self.  Funny how we seem to always fear the very thing that sets us free.
 
When we want anything from another we are beckoning them into the darkness with us. 
 
The fear of looking at what is driving the need in the first place.

An uncharted level of resistance deep inside required that I allow my awareness to penetrate my form and rest untouched and unconditional within me. Deep into my being, I traveled through my body bringing with me, as much of my conscious awareness as I possibly could, knowing I did not go alone.
 
The first tugs on my heart began. And I was aware then that I had reached a place within, a place that had never been seen or felt. As I got closer I noticed that it became more difficult to stay present. So I asked for more help and at that moment what had previously been held by the resistance, opened wide and the true depth of feeling was allowed its freedom.
 
The emotion and stretching of the heart was so vast, I had no idea where all this grief and sadness came from. I witnessed my need to understand and be conscious and in the giving up of that as well, I had access now to an even deeper part of my being. This was a place that held the wordless truth. I knew now what true unbridled feeling was and how when fully allowed, freely expressed, provides the direct experience of your own invulnerability. This is Divine strength. The light and love could not be held back any longer. I now understood what a shift in consciousness truly meant. The experience of the truth was alive inside me. There was nothing conceptual about this knowing; it is lived and therefore ultimate, not to be bypassed or diluted ever. Plain and simple…I was the Truth. And what's more, I could by choice become as intimate as I wanted to with this Truth just by being willing to receive and directly experience the deeper places of my being.
 
Fearless embodiment does not mean that fear is not present; rather in the face of that fear; you know you are one with Spirit. And here you are held as you trust that you can meet these places within and allow the love that leads to the truth.
 
I recognized the difference between consciously witnessing emotion while feeling it all as opposed to the unconscious loop of emotion that can hold you under and deliver you nowhere. I saw that my awareness was this 'Power' and it could be directed through the heart for the greater and continued unfolding of my 'Being'. The love that greeted these parts had always been with me and my willingness to 'show up' resulted in a direct experience of Truth.
 
 
I saw that the degree to which I willingly met myself with conscious awareness, determined the level at which unconscious pain was transmuted. Through this alchemical transmutation within my awareness firstly and secondly through my form, my unlimited essence streamed forth to rest in its rightful place. It merged with present awareness on the physical plane.  I recognized that each step of embodiment strengthened Divine connection and empowered my Being in ways unimaginable.
 
In truth it was seen that embodiment brings us into alignment with the universal heart and the many multidimensional aspects far beyond the personality. Through this process we are lovingly secured in the center of our own Being; recognizing truth from within rather than existing on life’s outer surface. Embodiment allows us to consciously bring Spirit into every aspect and into every moment of our life. Informing us through the heart rather than the ego, providing us with truth rather than illusion. The power of love, the power of pure awareness and the truth that we are - all of it is gently revealed as we consciously bring Heaven to Earth.